Ello ello! Grace here.
Today is ‘Wellbeing Wednesday’… How are we all feeling?
I’m having a good week! Last week I found myself very homesick. Not that I’m feeling less homesick this week, or in the weeks before, I’m just managing it better. Does that make sense? I’m just a bit more in control of my energy and thoughts.
I’m sure you can absolutely 1000% relate. Each and every one of us has at least one person we miss… or loads of people. Last week I was especially (and uncontrollably) focused on my Mum and family in England.
All of a sudden they seemed so much further away from NY than before (not that California isn’t far away… but I could drive there if I needed to).
Who knows why last week was harder than other weeks. Maybe because it was Grandads birthday, maybe because the longer this goes on the further away getting on an airplane seems to be a realistic option. Or maybe it was just hormones. Those blasted things!
I miss these people all of the time! But for whatever reason, last week I could hardly watch my Mums doodle videos without bursting into tears.
I’m not telling you this so that you feel sorry for me. PLEASE don’t! That’s not my objective at all. I’m more than fine! This was last week! I’m upbeat and more hopeful this week! I’m simply sharing it with you so that you know that you’re not alone if you have the occasional (or week-long) wobbly.
There’s really very little difference between someone being thousands of miles away in quarantine, and people being in quarantine down the street from each other! We’re all missing our people.
I think it’s normal. Very normal! And a sure fire way of knowing that you’re not a sociopath, ha!
I know you’re missing your children, and your grandchildren. And your parents. And your friends. And some days and weeks that is going to feel like the hardest thing in the world. And other days and weeks you’ll manage it, fake it to make it, OR turn your mental or emotional energy towards something else.
This week I’ve already sorted out my UK passport renewal application! It expires in August. And I’m NOT FOR A SECOND going to find myself without a British passport in this situation!
So… I successfully redirected my energy towards what IS in my control; something productive and positive. And helps me move towards what I want.
(Side note: Any of you have those things that need renewing or sorting out? Now is the time!)
I had to go to a post office to mail the application… no problem. Gloves on, mask on. Bit windy. I LOVED the walk and being outside in the sun, just for a little, and for a very essential purpose (I’m still very much in quarantine otherwise).
Something I took for granted before, that I never will again… is being able to smile at people!! Something seemingly so small really was a huge part of my social outdoorsy-ness. It was something I did as a default; constantly, indiscriminately, and naturally. And suddenly I found myself trying to communicate friendliness via just my eyes… and that is HARD.
Without looking mental.
So I popped some sunglasses on. I’m grinning as I write this. I cannot wait to share a smile with a stranger on the street. And I will feel extra grateful to be able to do so.
Who do you miss? What do you miss? I would really love to hear. Feelings are meant to be felt, and sometimes sharing them releases you from being held hostage by them.
Stay safe! Stay well.
See you on Friday for the newest Groovi SHAC challenge, and a selection of beautiful your art from last weeks download!
Lotsa Love, Grace xoxo
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